Sinners Have Soul Too..... Insomniac Ramblings....

"Can't sleep at night and you wonder why Maybe God is trying to tell you something Crying all night long, something's gone wrong Maybe God is trying to tell you something Oh, you can't sleep at night and you sure wonder why Maybe god is trying to tell you something"--- GOD IS TRYING TO TELL YOU SOMETHING, The Color Purple ~ In the past three weeks, I've had maybe three decent night's worth of sleep. It's after 4:30am now and I've given up even trying to get some sleep. I wonder if maybe God is trying to tell me something. I wonder if the increasing insomnia is my subconscious' way of avoiding what would haunt my mind in my sleep. I'm wide awake most of the night, and in the day I'm beyond exhausted. I manage to keep up with all that I have to do each day and even my outward appearance masks what's going on on the inside. Looks can be so deceiving - on the inside I'm the walking dead. Yet when night falls again, I get an hour or a few hours if I'm lucky, then once again.... the vicious insomnia cycle starts again. Maybe it's my body's way of pushing me to deal with things I'm avoiding dealing with??? Perhaps my body is not going to allow me to rest until some situations in my life are taken care of. I'm certain God is trying to tell me something. I think I've been afraid to hear it even though I'm positive I already know both the question and the solution. I know my legs are far too short to outrun this Messenger. ~ "Sinners have SOUL too." Apparently, mine needs to listen and do, so that it can get some much needed rest. SOAP ~