"Oz Never Did Give Nothing To The Tin Man, That He Didn't, Didn't Already Have...." Mental Ramblings.....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I have a lot of things going on in my life right now and I guess that has me in one of my 'deep reflection' modes. Right now my mind is stuck on the TinMan. What made him decide to follow the advice of a fool with no brain and a chick who was lost? He was already better off than those two- he had a brain and knew just where the hell he was. He was better off without that heart. As a matter of fact, one of the very first things he said after getting the heart was speaking through his tear as he said goodbye to Dorothy, "Now I know I have a heart, because I can feel it breaking." Yeah......... that's what hearts do, they break by our disappoints or we allow them to be broken others. Is the amount that a heart feels/receives love worth the amount that it feels PAIN? The TinMan was minding his own, I suppose going through the motions of every day-to-day while all the while longing for a heart. That's human nature I suppose, always longing for that which we lack. (or think we lack) How was he to know that the one thing he didn't have, could be such a painful thing to have. People with big, generous, loving hearts are the most vulnerable to pain, disappointment, and heart-ache. And sadly, it's often the people closest to us, the ones we love the most, that inflict this pain. Our heart-ache can even by caused by pain we have inflicted on others. It doesn't matter if it's friendship, relationship, or familial love- it's all subject to the same. I often envy people who are callous and and in-different and who can walk away from foolishness without the caution of heart-strings roping them back in. Once again I'm being sarcastic- nothing new there. I'm grateful to be a loving, caring person. I'm grateful that I know what love is and have been shared love with. I just get tired from the tight-rope walk of when to be open, opening up just enough- but not too much, who to let in, and who to keep the hell out, etc... I am tired of all the second guessing and guarded security of matters of the heart. I just want to love and be loved in return, without all that........... EXTRA. S.O.A.P.